I keep failing at everything. Why, you ask? It's because I rely too much on people, & alcohol. *nods* I'd go to AA but I hear it's for quitters, and I have a shrink fear thanks to my mom (who just so happens to be one of those...)
I also got so used to my life the way it was, and even though some time has passed, I still refuse to let go of it - subconsciously moreso than consciously though. I've made some silly mistakes recently...a lot of it included tequila. I'd say I'm going to wisen up but the alcohol numbs everything and makes me feel like I have friends and relationships.
Off to go watch House...now there's something that'll really make me feel great. Hah